January 15, 2017

2017. Post 1.

2017. Oh hey there. How'd we get here? I do not know.

I am going to attempt to use this platform to share my thoughts again, probably most definitely my awkward lifestyle, and also things I get up to. I kind of forgot I had this blog, but for some odd reason it has now become my home page, and I was like, hmmmm I do remember how this works I think.

I moved to a new apartment ( I don't know if I had mentioned that at all last year when I fell off the blogplanet). My sister and I now are the proud renters of an adorable two bedroom apartment with a tiny kitchen and cozy living quarters. But honestly, I do love putting the place together, even if it is taking forever and a day to work on. BUT I BOUGHT A GROWN UP GIRL BED AND WILL BE SLEEPING IN A QUEEN SIZE BED FOR THE NEXT 80 YEARS.

I have a full time job and a part time job. So I never live for fun any more. But my cats are still alive and doing super. I have definitely increased my consumption of wine since moving out, increased my consumption of donuts and decreased my consumption of being healthy. Which is sad. My abs are hiding. But, it's a new year and there is a gym within walking distance of my apartment so I am going to join that like an adult. 

My birthday is next month. The big 2-6. Which means bye-bye mom and dad's insurance and hello fending for myself completely. I am terrified to say the least. But I do love my birthday.

Other than that, I am pretty much the same, just less me time. But hey, just building up that until I marry a billionaire, pop out 5 kids and a few pets, and die a rich fabulous lady. For now though, I will be scraping by...

Talk to you next year, jk, soon.

August 12, 2016

My Turn Around. Hi Adult World.

You guys. Let me tell you, my life has changed massively since the last time I blogged, which was eons ago.

So here's the thing, I am not going to be attending graduate school this upcoming fall. I really hoped I would be but God has other ideas of what would be best for me and let's be real, He definitely has the better plan in the end.
I am still sitting pretty at the number 4 slot at a particular university for the doctorate program, which is 5 years long. I mean I could get a call tomorrow saying I am in, but I hope not because...well here's why.

A few months back I was job searching as I have been doing the past year or so, without luck, and then I stumbled upon a job that fit my requirements to a T. I applied, got a phone call about an interview the next week, and then two weeks later had an interview with the supervisor. It went really well! Like really well. The only problem was that I was still waiting to hear back from my progress on the waitlist. They offered me a job and I decided to say "no" as it was only 8 hours a week, and I would be doing a lot of driving. Then I moved on to more job searching.

Jump forward a month ago, I was sitting around thinking (as you do), I really wanted to contact the company and see if they still had any openings left, since I had settled upon the idea that I was going to reapply for graduate school in the fall. The next day as I was going through my emails, there was one from the company, they were interested in hiring me for a full time position if graduate school was not going to be happening. Obviously I called them back and viola! They made a position just for me because they wanted to hire me that much!? I was beyond flattered and couldn't believe that I found a job in my field of study considering I only have a bachelors. But hey, God knows, and He is good.

With that, I became a full-time adult....well-ish.

Fast-forward to a few weeks ago my cousin flew me down to visit her and her husband for 5 days right just under a month before their little girl was to be born. I was so excited to go and visit and help them finish their house before nesting began. It was a wonderful trip, so much laughter, and memories made, basically a perfect trip.

However, upon being there I received a text from a very good friend saying that their apartment that was available and then had been taken was available again and my sister and I should make a move on it. So excited about the opportunity I called the landlord and three days after I returned from my little trip, my sister and I signed our first lease on an apartment. We move out in about a week.

And yes, I am slightly panicking. And yes I am overwhelmed. My life changed so fast and so quick I am still balancing three jobs, commuting, and trying to mentally prepare for all the things we will need for an apartment. BUT WE ARE DOING IT.

May 19, 2016

So Do You Like Books?

I hate reading.


I hatED reading.

It was a personal goal of mine to find a little bit of appreciate for books because they are nice looking and I feel like people who read always seem to have a little bit of an edge up on nonreaders. Not that anything is wrong with not reading, but I was just tired of answering "Do you like to read?" with a laugh and a "no".

I have recently been using my local library more and been exploring the shelves outside of the "DVDs" and "CDs". And what do ya know, I found something enjoyable and relaxing about reading under the warm covers of my bed. (Bonus, reading before bed makes sleeping wayyyyyy easier.)

I thought I would share some books that I have read over the last month with you. (Oh mhm, read 4 books in a month. That is VERY impressive for me.)

1. All the Bright Places by Jennifer Nivan- 8.5/10
Really liked this book for the most part. Not to give anything away but I found it very hard to put this book down. The last 30 pages were debatable but that's fine.

2. Eight Hundred Grapes by Laura Dave- 9/10
Loved this book. It's about wine making. But obviously there's more to it than that...there is love, family, and relationships. It definitely made me want to open up my own winery and vineyard....
Here's what Publisher's Weekly had to say, "A story about the messy realities of family, the strength (and weaknesses) of romantic love, and the importance of finding a place to call home..."

3. Finding Audrey by Sophie Kinsella- N/A
Currently still reading. But from a psychological stand point it's pretty good. It is in the first person perspective and allows for first hand insight on anxiety and mental illness. So I am enjoying it.

4. P.S. I Still Love You by Jenny Han- 2/10
I actually hated this book. The main character is far to whiney, constantly trying to rustle up some kind of argument and then turns on people to make them feel like it's their fault. I hate female characters who are indecisive and the male characters that think that being manipulated is okay. It's just annoying.

April 22, 2016

The Day I Woke Up and NEVER Should Have Left My Bed.

Hey there you!

A few weeks ago, two to be precise, I was waking up in the comforts of my bed feeling refreshed and ready to take on the day! That was until I stepped out of my bed. I really shouldn't have done that.

All was well. I went to the kitchen to make myself my morning meal, hot water with lemon, avocado on toast, yah know, basics. I put my last piece of bread into the toaster, walked away and when I returned, my toast was black.
Usually I am very good about timing on the bread but time escaped me....so I scraped off what I could and tried to lather on avocado.

I showered because that's necessary. After showering I  had approximately 60 minutes until I had to be at work. I came into my room to the looming process of deciding what to wear and literally had no clue. I sat on my floor for 30 min staring at every item and just being like, nope, nope, too tight, wow I have gained weight, oh gosh I look like a grandma, or, I look like a middle schooler. Nothing was working for me. After wasting time I had about 20 min to do my hair, makeup and put a lunch together. Well my hair took forever, so I actually was late to work and did my makeup there.  I had been dog sitting so I had limited time to return to the dogs and feed them. It happened to be the day when the dogs were outside forever and day and I literally had to go out and search for them. I also had to check on another neighbors dog to let that rascal out. After those tasks I went to work. When I arrived to work, my typical and reserved parking spot was blocked by a truck and a man power-washing restaurant furniture.
Obviously I said really positive words upon that discovery.

Then I headed down the road expecting to see the usual empty spots, but no, I found no open spots. I was already nearing a late entry into work...I open a store and the store was supposed to open in 2 min..I quickly zoomed around the corner and found a spot on the road. I stomped past the pressure washing man and huffed and puffed.

Well it was time for the store to open. I ran around like a crazy woman turning on lights, and putting the money in the drawer. I changed my shoes, or was in the process of it when a woman came into the store right at 11:02. Typically I have an hour before customers show up.

After she bought nothing, I threw on a lot of makeup because I felt hideous. Which FYI, that is such a great tip when you feel ugly, MAKE UP people MAKEUP. It's a miracle in bottles.

I think through out the day I ran into multiple displays, and was just bad at conversation.

It was rough.

That also happened to be the day when people asked me the dumbest questions that I had no answer to. SO I always lie.

It also took me longer to count the money at the end of the day so that was also a bonus.

After work I had to go home to feed myself and then race back to the dogs to feed and polish them...jokes about the polishing. After that I had plans to meet up with my friends for wine and rooftop chats, which is a favorite of mine. Anyways, basically the dogs were not cooperating again and were outside longer than I expected which delayed my arrival to my friend's apartment. But I did make it.

Wine was drunk. Food was eaten. Laughter and chats ensued. And THAT made my day so much better.

And then I spilled red wine all over me.

I decided I should probably just go home.

And that was the day I never should have left my bed.

The End.

April 15, 2016

I Have Been Hiding. Now I Am Here.

It's been a while since my last post, but to be fair nothing was really happening that felt like it should be shared on here. I mean I love my cats and baking but that can only be blogged about so much before I become bored of myself.

Another Friday night at home. I am not complaining, this week has been hectic enough and my sleep patterns have been not so fabulous. I have been working a lot, working out more, and working on myself slowly. I have been in a very long waiting period and so the whole "working on myself" bit has to do a lot with PATIENCE. Hey future self, are we alright? Did we successfully make it through this very arduous part of our life successfully??

Heavy things happening for me. But I will be fine, I am just exhausted.


I would like to let y'all know that I talked to a cute boy/man=boman at the gym. Yeah it was just me doing some intense moves and then he walks in and goes to the mat next to mine and I am like, "What ever you do, you CANNOT look weak!" So I stopped what I was doing and took some heavy sips of water, wiped the forehead, breathed, and then went into another circuit, I probably looked stupid but to me I was on FIRE. And then the "boman" asked me something. I stopped breathing which was bad because I was in a plank position and you need to breathe....he repeated whatever he said. I had my headphones in and some good music encouraging me so I took a headphone out and was like "hmm?" and he goes "Do you mind if I turn this fan off?" and I said with a very reassured cool chick face "nah, go for it". And then we both went back to working out.

And that's the tale of me talking to a cute "boman" at the gym. Hopefully next time (if there is one) I can say something other than what I said, like maybe a joke....or something.....I don't know. Help.

I have bene SUPER into watercolor painting the last few months which is fun.

My good friend got married and I was a bridesmaid in that. And p.s. I made the groomsmen laugh a lot which made me feel cool and then I looked at all their hands in a sly way and they were all married. So there went that hope. I also made the groomsman I walked down the isle with grab my arm instead of me grabbing his because I totally meant to do that and was not anxious at all about people staring at me or messing up......oh wait.

I also would like you all to be aware that during the rehearsal for the ceremony the owner of the facility was telling us where we could smoke and my friend and I were joking across the room from each other and the owner caught us and thought I was serious. So then she and the rest of the groom's family and friends all thought I was a smoker. I was wearing a leather jacket and leopard loafers too...so yeah obviously my clothes were super helpful with my accidental image. #rebel.

I definitely got my fill of swatting away boys whilst out clubbing with my friends. We don't dance "sexy" we dance like a bunch of loons or children not sure which. But for some reason the boys flock and I knock them over. Not really but I do just look at them if they start to hit on me and say "No, no no no no bye." And my sister and I pretend to be a couple if the dudes get too handsie. Gross people. But always a hilarious time.

My best friend Kelsey flew from Chicago to spend time with me for my birthday and never have I laughed so hard in 4 days than with her. We met while studying in London and basically are the same human being except she is way more confident and cool and determined which is fantastic energy to be around. We went on a glorious hike for my birthday (what even..) and we passed a group of 4 cute boys and one looked at me and tripped and I nearly wet myself from that incident. He actually tripped over a stump but for ego's sake I will say he tripped because of my face.

Hmmm...what else happened...OH! I am 25 now! Holy cow. I truly love this age though. Like I legit feel older and starting to feel like my body and mind are beginning to match up. It was my favorite birthday ever. So calm and fun and wonderful. I felt extremely loved and cherished. And I got a ton of baking supplies INCLUDING a TORCH!!!! Creme brûlée??!?!?! Yasssssss...

I made amazing croissants last month, they were devoured in 3 days. There are 4 people who live in this house. To be fair though I did share with my grandma, sister, and bro-in law.

Other than that. I am alive.  And going to bed at 9 pm. Peace.