March 4, 2015
Calling This Installment...Whine Night..Do ya get it?
I have hit senioritis-land. It is rough. It happened about 2 weeks ago and now I am having a very difficult time even thinking about going to class, or sitting in lecture. I was doing good until it hit me that I have roughly 2 1/2 months left of school and basically my classes that don't have to do with my major really don't matter. Like speech, uhm never going to use you and I am a horrible speaker.
You don't understand, I am horrible. Like I am fine until I have to get up and talk to a room of people, I would much rather be sitting in math class.
I also have hit a point in my life where all of my friends have a love interest of some kind, which leaves me out with the cats (this is not new information, I have always been out with the cats it's just I finally am acknowledging it). It is one thing to talk to friends about boys, it's another thing to talk to friends about THEIR boys. I seem to be the one they always go to for advice on the relationship, and what great advice I do give but I have no idea where it comes from for I have about 3% knowledge on the subject. Talking about their interests of loves makes me feel so very alone and single and anxiously awaiting the day when my man appears and then I can be on the opposite end of the conversation. I don't know if I am the only one in the world who feels this way, but I am over hearing about how other people have met so and so and are having mutual feelings. I'm just drained from it.
Because of my life of solitude, I like cats. They keep me company, they are fluffy and they do not care what I look like, ever.
I am on this diet as prescribed by my doctor, where basically I can only eat vegetables and cardboard.
I have been on it for 5 weeks now, and have one week left. It is ROUGH! Not only am I not allowed to eat onions, apples, garlic or beans, I cannot have any high fructose corn syrup, molasses, wheat, dairy (not that I can have that anyways lactose intolerant)....and chocolate. There are many more things I cannot have. My parents lovingly went out and bought a bunch of food that I can eat and things to make foods I can eat. It was really hard the first week because I had to read everything and craved everything. I craved things so much I had about 4 days of migraines and 3 other days of stomach aches, heartburn, headaches, just miserable. We think I was going through withdrawal. It was hard, but I am feeling soo much better now (which means oops I have been eating something that's been bothering me). I will slowly reintroduce foods to find a trigger but man oh man, I miss garlic, onions, mushrooms, apples and BREAD. I have been having stomach issues for 4 years now and finally decided enough was enough. So yay. I also was on this diet for my 24th birthday, nothing like not being able to eat your entire birthday pie. :(
Also, update on the swedes at my school. They are dreamy as ever, but I am beginning to come to the conclusion nothing will come of their good looks and charm and me. For I am shy. And no men ever talk to me besides the times when they ask what floor I am going in the elevator. SIGH. Dreamy ikea-lingonberry-blonde hair-blue eyed-land, I kiss you farewell.
I am exhausted from school, from running my program, to mentoring students, to trying to figure out how I am going to get out of America and back into the warm foggy arms of England. Yeah my brain tires me out..
That's all for now!